Our Community Support Networks and Peer Support Networks in Glasgow and Angus support both people experiencing thoughts of suicide, and also the friends and family of someone they are worried about. We asked some people involved in the Peer Support Network to share their stories with us. Read *Anna’s story below.
*Please take care if you decide to read this, it necessarily contains discussion of suicidal feelings.*
My dad took his own life when I was 16. Not that anyone told me at the time that’s what happened. At the time it really affected me. I had no emotional support. It set me off down a path that was quite destructive. I spent a lot of time and money trying to get to the bottom of what happened to my dad. It wasn’t talked about by the family, and still isn’t talked about.
I have attempted suicide myself a number of times. Most recently was the most serious. I felt so alone and this felt like the only option. I was in a really difficult place; bullied at work, unable to see my son, had no heating or hot water in my rented house. It was completely overwhelming.
After my last attempt I was taken home once I convinced the psychiatrist that I was ok. It wasn’t until my uncle came to see me a couple of days later and convinced me to phone the hospital that I was admitted. I was taken in that day. I had lots of visitors that I hadn’t seen in a long time, but the one that really impacted me was my best friend. She never cries but she broke down in tears. I’ve known her for 15 years and I’ve never seen her cry. You don’t really think about the impact that you will have on other people, you assume they won’t care that much.
Once I got out of hospital the support from friends has been incredible. In particular the friends that I met in hospital have been great. They understand what I’m going through. My uncle has also helped a lot, he’s busy, but he calls once or twice a week and visits about once a week just to see how I’m doing.
I go to the SAMH group every week, and it’s great. The staff really go above and beyond. I know if I’m in crisis or about to have one I can phone them. They help me through it; I owe my life to them. It also really helps to see that other people are going through what I am.
If I was to speak to someone who was going through what I have, I would tell them to reach out, get help, phone anyone. Even go to the hospital or the police station. Don’t give up on yourself. I still find that hard, but I now always make that phone call rather than coping alone.
If you are having thoughts of suicide please seek help. Our information ‘Living with your thoughts’ may help.
If you are thinking about suicide now and would like to talk to somebody and seek help call
Samaritans 08457 90 90 90
Breathing Space 0800 83 85 87 (Weekday 6pm-2am Weekend 6pm-6am)
NHS 24 08454 24 24 24
If you need immediate medical attention please dial 999 and request an ambulance
*Anna is not the bloggers real name.